and then all of a sudden i smoke and turn music on and im completely content. don't get me wrong, i understand the idea of addiction. although i feel like i personally will never fall victim to addiction, i understand it. drugs provide an escape for the worries and problems of life. just like now for instance. i've done a completely 180. however i understand i still have these problems and my escape from the worries of reality does not mean i have become dis attached from reality enough to find a complete release in getting high. once your high becomes your escape, then you have lost control. my high is to enhance the situation or to enjoy myself. the difference between getting high to feel good and getting high to feel better are so important.




but what do i know. im just an addict rambling.